Over the past 8 years of my life I have battles crippling anxiety, To the point where I have taken leaves from school and had to stop working. I had no life plan because I had no hope for myself.
Over the past year my life has changed for the better. I started rock climbing every other day, I GOT A JOB, I have gone to a few weddings and ate out at them also a huge fear for me. I have not ate out prior to this for over 8 years, I cant believe how much as changed.
Today I went to a Formal holiday party for my work. Not only did I attend this event but I ate there and after went out to the bar to play pool. last year I was talking about how I did not think I could ever work again and was so lost. I felt like giving up and almost did. Now I feel free like I can push myself more and more. I still battle with my anxiety mostly with meetings as my work host 7am work meetings and it is so hard to attend them, as mornings can be dodgy for me as i often feel ill. I am lucky to have a caring boss and my general manager is able to let me work around my health and anxiety, makes working less stressful.
This year has gone by so fast and I cant believe where I am at. I am still not where I want to be but getting closer every day and glad I was able to get out of my comfort zone. gave me more of a life to live. battle everyday and I can be hard on my self for not starting collage and i’m about to turn 22 but baby steps. you can do anything if you truly believe. mind over matter.